Don’t fall for it again

Don’t fall again, I told myself over and over 

Then our lips kept meeting

Our hands kept touching

Our bodies melted together as we danced

Your words and actions, so addictive

Don’t fall for it 

Don’t fall again

Even with a guard I was still falling hard

Falling for the feeling

Falling for the love

Falling for the connection

A connection my body mind and soul needed so badly

It’s not his fault I fall so hard 

My heart longs for love, especially this type 

The type where I get butterflies every time we make contact

The type where everyone around sees it

The type where we make love all night because it just feels right

Don’t fall for it

Don’t fall again, over and over 

But every second felt perfect

How was I to keep myself from falling 

And falling 

And falling again

When it rains it pours they say

Why does it seem to happen every time

The domino effect

Lost soul, broken heart, low income, crazy decisions

The highs so high and the lows so low

When it rains it pours they say

What about when I beg I pled

Please why Please show me the way

Please, begging pleading

When it rains it pours they say

On the day I felt most beautiful

Waking up in your arms lead to making love

Lead to meeting the family with smiles and laughs

Energy warm and comforting

From you, from everyone

Dressing me in clothes that made me feel like the prettiest gypsy at the party

On the day I felt most beautiful 

The way you looked into my eyes

Pure admiration of my beauty

The way you and your friends spoke about me

Like I was a walking goddess

My goodness thats how it felt 

it truly made me melt

On the day I felt most beautiful 

I will remember the love rushing 

Gushing through my body

I’ve never been higher

There was something in the way

The love that day

On the day I felt most beautiful

Physically emotionally verbally the love came

As though we were all the same

Pouring from one to another 

We were all soaring 

Oh the day I felt most beautiful 

The day I flew 

The day my heart grew

August 2nd 2024 Ozora Festival

Most people don’t know how to navigate the darkness

we smile through the light 

we cry through the dark

it’s important to let yourself experience darkness

how would you know yourself if you didn’t know yourself in darkness

how would you know yourself if you didn’t know yourself in the light

highs and lows 

light and dark

good and bad

important and necessary 

every aspect of life

every moment and memory 

every laugh and cry

helps you grow helps you learn helps you prosper 

I wouldn’t know myself if I only experienced good days

I wouldn’t know myself if I only experienced bad days

I want to know the dark and light 

I want to wipe my tears and laugh out loud

I want it all

the light the dark the good the bad the ugly

I didn’t know you

Then I loved you

Only for us to go back to just as we were before

But I want more

You were a stranger on the dance floor

To a lover in my bed 

And you haven’t left my head

Thoughts and dreams 

Lovers to strangers

So quick to come and so quick to go

I cant just go with the flow

I want to go with you, be with you, make love to you

But you’re still just a stranger who was a lover

The best lover and the best stranger 

They tell you just wait 

You’re person is coming

All I do is dream and ponder 

Who are they I wonder

Where are they how are they

I hate the feeling of knowing they are far

I miss them and I don’t even know who they are

I miss the feeling I know ill get when we make love

I miss the feeling of our lips touching making me wet

I miss the feeling of something I don’t have yet

Wait they tell you

Fate they tell you 

The world excites me

Everything about it

The colors the people the food the lights the music the dances 

I can never understand how someone wouldn’t want to keep exploring

I can't sleep because my heart is roaring

Begging to be out in the world with something to see

I just want to be 

I want to free my mind and body 

I will dance till my feet fall off

Listen to the music till my ears hurt

I want to eat food till I explode

I want to meet people who make me feel at home

I want be to a part of every life in every part of the world

I want to keep dreaming and seeing

I can't stop being consumed by the travel bug

It's eating me alive 

How am I to survive without my bag on my back 

It's just the way of life I want to live

So tell me how much does the world excite you

Work hard Play hard

Thats what they say now a days

But all I want to do it play

I want to be a kid out in the world

I want to be a kid with a heart so big and a laugh so loud 

I want to show the world we can play no matter what age

We can go out and meet lovers 

We can go out and meet strangers

I see friends and family slaving away 

I just don’t see my life that way

I see freedom and love and nothing to hold me down

I don’t want to be bound to the system

There are people out there waiting for me and I don’t want to miss them

I want to play play play 

There must be a way way way

I love love

The way it makes me feel 

All of the emotions 

All of the quivers and shivers

I can't control the thoughts 

Once I taste your love I want more

Like a vampire searching for blood

I just can't help but love love

I just can't help but crave it like food

I am just always in the mood

I want it now I want it later

I hope I’m in the gods favor

How do you let go of something you barely had

How do you let go of the most beautiful connection 

Filled with sensation and vibration

How do you find the art in letting that go

The art was the love

Love is art 

And my god it filled my heart

Ten thousand miles apart 

And I still can't let it go after all

I let go and started to fall

Then you pulled me right back up

With a silver rope 

You gave me hope

The art was the love

I can't let go 

I barely had you

Now what am I to do

I never stood a chance 

Once our bodies started to dance

I was fully in the trance

I was consumed for 3 days

I couldn’t bare going separate ways

Once we left the dance floor

I never stopped wanting more

My thoughts were so thin

As we laid there touching skin

I tried to take it all in

Who knows when I'll feel like this again

I’m Okay

How are you? 

Yeah I’m doing just fine

Everything is so divine

That's what I tell them, friends and family 

I want them to think I live happily

I am really putting up a fight 

I've fully lost sight

Not me in the mirror as I watch in terror

Realizing this isn’t just a fight, 

It's an all-out war

Inside my head 

My Demons are being fed 

Maybe the hack is just a bottle of jack

I wave my white flag and pack my bag

I want to go back to when I could go to bed

Without this war in my head

Sometimes there's a war inside your head

Sometimes there's a war inside your home

Sometimes there's a war inside your country

War in your head lead to tears at night in your bed

War in your home lead to wandering the streets just to be alone

War in your country lead to fleeing and pleading 

Such a scary thing, a three-letter word

Cause when it's heard it leaves you weary

Defeated in this war 

You just can't beat it

Everyone has a battle to fight

And I know it's just not right 

War has no home here 

Not in my head

Not in my home

Not in my country

till death do us part

what if we don’t make it till death

the death of me was when you began to scream

where did we go wrong 

I’ve been loving you for so long

but now I sleep alone 

in a place we call home 

no words left to say 

I’ve got to get away 

the connection is too far gone 

I have to move on

all these years I’ve been holding back tears

can they see it? 

can they see that it’s just a ring?

we’ve got nothing

No love, No lust

We’ve crumbled to dust

Look at her go

Her movement and flow

I couldn’t take my eyes off her 

As her body lost all control too the rhythm of the music

Look at her go

Her smile radiates with the brightest glow

She smiles from ear to ear as she hears the music

She can't stop from loosing control

Look at her go

I want to say hello 

I want to kiss her lips and touch her body

I want to feel her energy flow through me 

I can't let her be

Look at her go 

My god, she looks like an angel from every angle 

Even with sweat and dust, I had so much lust

My god can you feel it 

I think she’s my favorite 

My god can you feel the energy pull you

I think I’m long overdue

Look at her go

Now in my arms and on my lips

As she sways her hips

She fully fits in my arms

I would never do her any harm

Look at her go 

As she walks away 

I have so much to say

But I watched her walk because I was too afraid to talk